Tuesday, November 08, 2005

bordem or however you spell it becomes me

wow as it would seem i move into my house in less than one week. itll be good times only crappy part is that i cant build my ramp till summer or fall next year so i remain with absoulutly nothing to ride. i really hate this because latley ive wanted to ride more than anything. me and eric had a good session that invovled the cops and everything. so funny how some people call the cops on you cause they think they almost hit you in the street. i guess flying from the coop parking lot over the entire sidewalk and landing in the street can take a person by surprise lol. work is good, its getting colder. its raining and i want to bike i should shower but i dont feel like it. holly is working again. ive been in my pjs since i got home from work and i dont want to get out of them....

the check engine came on in my car again today boo hiss. so glad to have to not worry about money for a while. things are tight but i have enough. full time ministry you say? i started to play my guitar again but soon i wont cause ill be addicted to cleaning my house and playing nintendo and watching bike vids and doing 180s in my garage. i should build a huge garage ramp im sure holly would love that lol. this is my rant and i like it. im gonna go shower now for those of you who thought ewww to the above comment about not showering. but yeah.

i miss everyone

Friday, October 21, 2005

where does time go

well i dont know how your guys' weeks have been but mine sure seemed to just escape under me. all of a sudden its friday again and here i am. this week was hard at work it was slower and that is never good. things overall are very good at work.

lets see heres some things that have been on my mind today/this week:
-bc skateparks
-my old abby apartment and events of the dwelling
-biking with people
-bc in general
-honeymoons
-houses
-sleep oh sleep
-britt (ironically snow patrol is playing right now for those of you who understand)
-wanting to just get away (for some reason i just really want to get up and go like just away from this blah time. this week drove me nuts.)
-blah and others etc.

for some reason this week got me down. im not sure whether its the weather or whether its some kind of attack. who knows.

anyway following the ever poplur trend...if this doesnt make you feel some kind of emotion then you should check your heart to see if you are alive...

"Run"

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

what can i say about today

well it snowed alot and was very cold and wet and i was outside working. boo. i was getting blown off of trucks and struck in the head with lumber falling from trucks. overall it was okay after lunch when i got my feet dry and the weather got worse. bah. so we are trying to get a house built soon so we can live somewhere and things are starting to pick up here. hopefully well have started in a few weeks. i love working at parkside the guys there are great and the overtime rules on the paychecks. starting to miss bc a bit cause i miss biking with peeps but hey what can ya do. anyway this is for janet cause she reads this thing. yay for her.

phil

Sunday, July 17, 2005

figured i should write something

well i havent updated for a while. for those of you who dont know, i am indeed back in winkler for good this time.

so what have i been up to you ask? well here goes...im working at home for my stepdad doing digital photos and vinyl graphics and the like, living with my parents, waiting for new new wheels to come for my bike so i can ride again...they are in winnipeg so soon the mailman will bring them, in the mean time im digging dirt jumps in my back yard and meeting new bmx guys to ride with in this here city.

i feel alot like people dont ever hang out anymore but i guess i feel that way only cause i happen to be the only guy around these parts. i guess i feel like i cant really call someone up and do something cause thatd be weird but serioulsy we should get together like everyone and just hang out and talk for a night. other than just working and being with holly i havent been doing to much. no big plans for leaving or anything...im here for a few years anyway.

i really gotta get back to church one of these days. my lack or should i say desire to sleep has overcome me the last couple weeks. ill be there next week forsure.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

hey look no tea!

so yeah im in bc now. and im a little stressed cause i dont have all that much money and my job is post poned for another week cause if some crazy engineering flaw or something. anyway so i guess for now ill just be living in my car slash couch riding for another week. some people have the most comfortable couches. anyway. last night was pretty fun i rode in couquitlam with everyone again. i learn really funny looking 360 turndowns out of the quarter pipe. they are fun. anyway im just bored today its a little hot and there arent many people at the park. i played guitar for a bit and had a slurpee. tonight maybe ill ride again. well i will ride again. still trying to get ahold of my boss to see if i can work this week somewheres else so i can have money. anyway i have nothing else to say.

Saturday, May 21, 2005

a cup of tea anyone?

so im at my gram's house in killarney manitoba right now. we just sat down for a cup of tea it was so nice. its good to be back and to catch up on everything that is happening is my familys lives.

kendra lori marce cherise and jen came over last night that was nice. kendra and marce came for pizza supper and we had strawberry kiwi smoothies cause im on a kick right now. then we had a fire and went out for ice cream. it felt good to have friends again. ahh yes. im going to the ranch on monday to visit eric and do some biking. i think cherise and kendra are coming with me. its gonna be so fun.

im still waiting to find out when i go back to BC. i hope its not to soon cause itd be nice to have somemore time here with family.

well its really windy here so i think ill blow away now. ahhhhhhhhh

phil

Thursday, May 19, 2005

God is at work

do you ever find yoruself somewhere talking to someone and you never planned it. and then you end up being totally encouraged and effected by that conversation.

i had one of those nights tonight. i was talking to someone and he really lifted me up and showed me what i needed to be shown. and that is that i need to trust in God. its funny cause at the gate the trench series that i was there far a part of was about trust and i was touched by that and now this. i really felt God just speaking to me tonight. i need to be less concerned about things and just let God handle them. have faith like a child...so true. dont stress out over decisions pray about it and have trust that God will do good no matter what and that he will influence our decisions. ive decided to go to BC again. i feel that God has big plans for me this year and that vancouver island is where i am going to be. i want to be a missionary and a pastor but not the kind that you think of i want to just be a christian and do what God has called of me. i feel that God is going to use me to reach people at skateparks and busstops and coffee shops and at my work place and just everywhere. the trick is letting him. churches are good for people who have faith and want to grow. only a small percentage of those searching will find a church. if someone has a deep faith issue cahnces are they arent going to end up at your church snuday morning or at your church plant or in mexico at the house you are building. they are going to be sitting there at tim hortens or starbucks drinking coffee and wracking their brains. or at the skatepark or deliverign your mail. in the park or on the bus. that is where i feel i need to reach people. now im not meaning to belittle churches and missionaries who do other sorts of things because that is needed as well but im saying that you who are in the world. going to school and working. you to are missionaries talk to people let them tell you about their lives tell them about yours. sow the seeds, dont force feed them with yuor faith but instead let them ask you. be the light that God has called us to be.


phil